I hate feeling ugly. I understand everyone feels ugly. I understand that there are people out there that have disformities, are incredibly disfigured, ect. but I don’t think it’s fair to say I’m being ridiculous when I say I can’t see anything that pretty when I look at myself. I see so much beauty in everyone else around me, and it makes me sad that this is the only way I’ll look, ever. I want high cheeckbones, olive skin, thick dark hair and eyebrows, thin lips and a beautiful defined and refined nose, and whispy limbs and a curvy figure. But I can’t have all of that. It’s impossible. I think about it so hard sometimes it literally makes me want to cry. Natural beauty is honestly the one thing I would consider doing terrible things for. I’m that vain. It makes me sick thinking about it.